Love dairy of five days

Such a horrible day with full of fear & stress. It was the first day of our second semester. Everybody was like what will happen today. So we all gathered in front of our respective classes. Suddenly something happened don’t know what but I felt something. I saw a girl don’t know who was she but suddenly she disappears somewhere. So now we also moved for our examination rooms. Hundreds of students were there but my eyes stuck on one girl whom I saw there. A girl with full of stress in her face and  a lot of innocence in  her eyes..... Again something happened but this time I can easily heard the sound of my heart it was beating much faster and I had nothing to control........   At that time I was feeling like I was the luckiest person on the entire world because my seat was just beside her. I was only looking  her whole examination  and she don’t even realized that someone is watching her. I thought she was not properly prepared for that examination. She was trying to do somthing but she couldn’t… not because of invigilators but I thought she was doing that first time in her life. That was the only moment  when I fall for her……...

She was looking so pretty, innocent just like a child, at  that moment she tries to do something but suddenly she can’t .she was so childish.

I thought that I should talk to her. I have decided that after examination I will talk to her but suddenly she disappears. Then I saw her again in the campus but she was with her friend I was standing there and deciding…..….should I talk to her?….should I say  what I feel for her? And finally she disappeared and I was disappointed…....

Whole time I was only thinking about her I forgot that I have my examinations also. I reached my hostel and I started finding  her in every possible social sites. I also don’t know the name of that  girl .I don’t know anything about her but I know the name of her friend who was sitting just behind her. So I visited her profile and started finding her in her friendlist but it was my badluck she was not there But I never lossed my hope I started checking her likes and comments in their profile pics.

Hey I got her …….. I saw her profile, now I came to know her name. whole night I spent only by watching her pics, posts and suddenly I saw something ,a link where I can write anything and she will never know who had written for her…..….. A greatest foolish work done by me....… I wrote everything what I feel for her.

Second day of our examination I was so normal by outside but inside what was happening only I can understand. I came with a target that today she should be my friend anyhow. My eyes were at the door.

She came I saw her but she didn’t even noticed me....……somehow I started..…my heart was not in my control but somehow I was talking to her without making her realize that I have anything for her...…  what I was pretending like it was the first moment when I saw her or wants to know her. It was the toughest thing for me but atleast my wish was completed now she is my friend. I can chat with her I can be with her I can even express my feeling of that moment. I returned to my hostel and  I sent her request. There was no limit of my excitement I told about her to my sisters' that  sis'  I saw a girl and I want to marry her but I don’t know anything about her. My sisters were like, are you out of  your mind?? I ignored.... 

She accepted my friend request and the conversation begins. We started chatting. We generally discuss about the examinations. As I am naughty in nature so It was easy for me to divert her stressful mind in a zone which was more comfortable and light. I used to crack jokes trying to  make her feel happy. I thought she is a kind of girl who is so innocent, sweet, less talkative but she was just opposite of all above. She was innocent by heart but not by mind she was so naughty , more talkative. I was like who was she? Is she the one whom I seen in the examination hall? But again her childish nature,it has always attracted me… her glittering eyes, lips, face everything she is just like an angel for me.  I only wanted to hold her hands not as my girlfriend but I decided to hold her for rest of my life. I wanted to spend my remaining life with her……..

So here, it is the third day of our examination. we met again but we didn’t talk too much as I thought but I tried to talk her.As exam started everyone was busy with their papers  and all i was busy with her, observing every little expression of her childish face. she was looking so pretty when she was attempting her answers. I helped her in answering few of them now the exam has ended we all returned to our places.

As i reached my room I open my phone in a hope to find her online and there she was. We started chatting . More I talk to her more I come to know about her. But there was always a question, was she in a relationship? so i asked her about her boyfriend. She told me she  love someone and she is in a complicated relationship with him……. Is this some kind of a sign , why she is telling me about her complicated relationship.But here I felt very disturbed by the thought that she is already in a relationship with someone.So i decided to tell her every little feelings which I have for her.

Today is the fourth day of our examination. I was sad because I got only two examination to be with her and I only have those two days to express my feelings to her or atleast I can try to leave my impression in her mind. How the days  passed I don’t know…........ again we met but that day I was totally out of my control what I was doing I don’t know. I don’t want to make her realize that I like her but nothing was in my control. We completed our examination and moved. That day I was only planning for fifth day and The Final Day. I decided to express all my feelings for her. I want to make that day the bestest day for my life . I have planned that I will propose her after the Exam over  so for tomorrow I asked her over an Ice cream .She accepted our Ice cream date .  There was a condition for her fro my side which was nothing much she just have to be there in a dress which she likes the most . I was excited for the next day,I was going to express my feelings to her.....I was having a sleepless night thinking about tomorrow......

Finally , The sun was up and so were my feelings.  I was at the examination Center waiting for her Impatiently , there she was, the last one to show up. I saw her, but I was disappointed because she was not wearing anything which i have expected she was in her collage uniform. Our examination started and the time passed very slowly and i was getting very impatience for our ice cream date. With every second my patience was being tested .  When the exam was finally over I was waiting for her outside the gate. I was so excited. But she didn't show up she quietly left with her friends. Her action left me with a sudden pain.I was feeling completely helpless. I thought she might forgot about that.  somehow I went there, she was with her friends. I asked her to come with me……………but she didn’t, she told me she have some work in her collage…..  I didn’t asked anything more.  she had already spoiled my mood………I reached  my hostel I saw her message.I thought to block her but I didn’t I don’t know why. I told her everything that how much I love her what I feel for her everything and after some conversations I blocked her………I have conveinced myself that i will never speak to her again in my life. She called me at midnight pm  we have cleared all our misunderstandings and everything…..that day I lost a girl whom I want to  spent my whole life with ,  but that day I got a friend ,a special friend…


Something that I always wanna share with you MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS NO DEPTH. ITS BOUNDARIES ARE EVER EXPANDING. MY LOVE AND MY LIFE WITH YOU IS A NEVER ENDING LOVE STORY...........

I LOVE YOU.....